in the name of Love…
remembering u...always...
Dear YL,
I wrote this letter with a positive note in my heart that it will reach you no matter how far you are or how long it will take. With a sole intention of making you understand what happened and why everything ended with the big decision I made that caused you so much pain and hardened you heart. Regret has no place for I will stand firm with the decision of letting you go. I know I can never make you believe that until now tears still fall every time I wake up and realize you are no longer there, no longer mine and probably will never find your way back to me again. I have gotten accustomed to sleeping with your shirt on and hugging the **** you gave me and texting **** *** ****** good morning and good night as if you’re still at the other line smiling while reading my messages. I know that no matter what I say, it will never change the way you feel for me right now and that no matter what I do, forgiveness is still not mine to earn. I am not sorry for letting you go and giving you the chance to explore the world beyond my walls. There is so much that you need to see and it causes me pain to realize I am blinding you with the love you have and the misery that I am in. It feels like my miserable life is dragging you down. I can only wish that someday I will become the girl who can match the goodness of your heart… the one who deserves your love. But until then I’ll just watch you move forward and realize your dreams with someone else at your side. With my little understanding of what love is I hope you felt it somehow despite everything that I have done. If our paths would cross again I won’t ask you to talk to me or hug me, much less kiss me like the way you always do. A forgiving smile…that is all I want from you. My heart will always see everything…the way it used to be…
for Ma.****,
it takes great courage to fight for someone you love but it takes even greater courage to let go of someone you have fallen deeply beyond the simple meaning of love…
i salute you for what you did knowing that it is the best thing to do…God has found His way to your heart and I am so thankful you made that decision with His guidance…
After all these years…we still manage to keep our unbreakable faith….
